Well here we are again.
Here's a quick catch up on the remainder of yesterday. I was going to see the nurse at my new doctors surgery and to a spiritual healing class last night, here goes:
Visit with the nurse.
She was lovely, she didnt lecture me on being over weight, she listened to everything I had to say, advised me that my blood pressure was a little on the high side but explained that was understandable considering my depression. Her scales where even better than she was, I lost 9lb between getting up at 7am and getting weighed at the surgery at 4pm, think they are magic and I want them!!!!
The spiritual healing class didnt happen though unfortunately. My partner in crime was unable to make it due to the weather and as I was relying on her for a lift home thought better of going on my own. That being said it was better that way as I was truly exhausted after my 2 journeys out.
Today I had to see my new doctor. I cant pronounce his name so will just call him Mr Magee. Once again he was lovely and listened to everything I had to say, He had two students with him which made the visit even more daunting but it was worth it, I think I am going to be happy with him, unlike my last one, I never knew which doctor I was going to see and they all had different ideas on my treatment, at least with Mr Magee there will be some consistency. I even managed to get through the consultation without crying, woo hoo, that makes a change!! He gave me another sick note which I thought said one week so I rang work to let them know, my manager wasnt in so I managed to speak to one of the other staff, now that is big as the last time one of them answered the phone I just put it down, When I got home I started to fill it in and realised that it actually said one month, how embarrassing having to ring them back and let them know, that being said, I feel more relaxed about it as I can now set myself up a plan of action to try to make sure that I am back at work at the end of the next month, it gives me time to prepare myself and get myself used to being amongst people, as you probably guessed by now I was bricking it at the thought of being back in one week as I am still struggling with going out.
Talking of work I have now been off since beginning of November last year which, by the time I return will make it something like 5 months. During that time I can only explain the first three months as being spent in a drug induced haze!! My tablets where changed time and again and due to seeing the different doctors all the time there was no consistency in my treatment. I am so glad I changed surgery's as I feel a lot more confident with the doctor I have now. Someone told me I should put a complaint into the practice manager, especially about the time when I was just taken off all medication cold turkey as that could have been quite dangerous but I dont really see what good it would do, If your complaining to the practice manager of the surgery you are with I dont see how they can be any use as they will always side with the doctor!!
One thing I have noticed recently is that I feel as though I am trembling inside all the time, I am sure its just my anxiety at going out or doing anything out of my comfort zone, I will have to keep an eye on it but I am sure as I get calmer then the shaking will calm down too. Another thing I have been doing is talking very fast, my speech seems to speed up the more I say and I have to catch myself and take a deep breath to try and slow down, again, this will improve as I get better.
Something that I have done today that I havent done in ages is home made meat and potato pie, first one I have done in months as I haven't had the energy or patience to do anything like that. It actually turned out pretty good too, will have to make some more, if I can do it once I can do it again.
Here's a quick catch up on the remainder of yesterday. I was going to see the nurse at my new doctors surgery and to a spiritual healing class last night, here goes:
Visit with the nurse.
She was lovely, she didnt lecture me on being over weight, she listened to everything I had to say, advised me that my blood pressure was a little on the high side but explained that was understandable considering my depression. Her scales where even better than she was, I lost 9lb between getting up at 7am and getting weighed at the surgery at 4pm, think they are magic and I want them!!!!
The spiritual healing class didnt happen though unfortunately. My partner in crime was unable to make it due to the weather and as I was relying on her for a lift home thought better of going on my own. That being said it was better that way as I was truly exhausted after my 2 journeys out.
Today I had to see my new doctor. I cant pronounce his name so will just call him Mr Magee. Once again he was lovely and listened to everything I had to say, He had two students with him which made the visit even more daunting but it was worth it, I think I am going to be happy with him, unlike my last one, I never knew which doctor I was going to see and they all had different ideas on my treatment, at least with Mr Magee there will be some consistency. I even managed to get through the consultation without crying, woo hoo, that makes a change!! He gave me another sick note which I thought said one week so I rang work to let them know, my manager wasnt in so I managed to speak to one of the other staff, now that is big as the last time one of them answered the phone I just put it down, When I got home I started to fill it in and realised that it actually said one month, how embarrassing having to ring them back and let them know, that being said, I feel more relaxed about it as I can now set myself up a plan of action to try to make sure that I am back at work at the end of the next month, it gives me time to prepare myself and get myself used to being amongst people, as you probably guessed by now I was bricking it at the thought of being back in one week as I am still struggling with going out.
Talking of work I have now been off since beginning of November last year which, by the time I return will make it something like 5 months. During that time I can only explain the first three months as being spent in a drug induced haze!! My tablets where changed time and again and due to seeing the different doctors all the time there was no consistency in my treatment. I am so glad I changed surgery's as I feel a lot more confident with the doctor I have now. Someone told me I should put a complaint into the practice manager, especially about the time when I was just taken off all medication cold turkey as that could have been quite dangerous but I dont really see what good it would do, If your complaining to the practice manager of the surgery you are with I dont see how they can be any use as they will always side with the doctor!!
One thing I have noticed recently is that I feel as though I am trembling inside all the time, I am sure its just my anxiety at going out or doing anything out of my comfort zone, I will have to keep an eye on it but I am sure as I get calmer then the shaking will calm down too. Another thing I have been doing is talking very fast, my speech seems to speed up the more I say and I have to catch myself and take a deep breath to try and slow down, again, this will improve as I get better.
Something that I have done today that I havent done in ages is home made meat and potato pie, first one I have done in months as I haven't had the energy or patience to do anything like that. It actually turned out pretty good too, will have to make some more, if I can do it once I can do it again.