Good morning, my its strange how things can change from one day to the next. Last time I wrote about being up and down all the time, that is still so but today is a good day.
Wednesday night I went to an open circle. if your not sure what that is then let me explain, its a group of like minded people that all want to open their psychic energy. Now do not scoff, it's not to everybody's taste but I like anything from what I call the more natural side of things like self healing, working with crystals, karma, rhunes etc etc. Oh my did I make an entrance, walked in, saw a comfy sofa at the side and thought 'how nice' and plonked myself down forgetting that my aunty was with me, (a guy was already sat at the other side of the sofa). Anyway, she sat at the other side of the room and kept looking at me so in the end I said would you like me to come over there? Yes, she replied so then the fun began, because my back is still hurting (I pulled a muscle a couple of weeks ago in the bathroom and was left standing on one leg, trousers only half way up, unable to move a muscle and in serious danger of toppling over (I have no sense of balance) shouting for Ian who couldnt hear me as he was in the conservatory at the time, eventually my muscles decided to release enough for me to hobble to the top of the stairs where I proceeded to gingerly lower myself down and finally managed to slide down the stairs on my bum, great fun)! Anyway I digress, I had to shuffle about for what seemed like an eternity before I could find a comfortable enough position to enable me to stand, hobbled over to the seat next to her and sat, big mistake, was not a good seat, I dont think it had any bottom in it so I just seemed to sink, and sink and sink whilst at the same time everyone in the room was saying: 'dont sit there', phew I managed not to collapse in a heap on the floor with chair all around me but it was a near miss!!! So off I toddled again, back to where I had originally sat, talk about making an entrance, by this time everyone knew I was there.
The first thing we did was meditation, how nice, a bit of me time, so relaxing, we then went on to do sone drawings, they where really funny, we started off with a stick man then added things such as clothes, accessories, face, whatever we felt. This was then passed on to the neighbour who read your personality from what you had drawn, interesting.
Omg, I am suddenly struggling to write as I have just agreed to go out with my colleagues from work for a meal, heeeelp, I am panicking already, what if I make a fool of myself, or nobody talks to me or I have a panic attack or I look stupid, I am already feeling sick to the bottom of my stomach just thinking of it. Best is I know that I will be fine, I know that I get on with everyone its just that it will be the first time I have been outside my comfort zone when I have not been with either family or close friends, anyway I will let you know how I get on, its not for a few weeks yet so plenty of time to talk myself out of it.
Oh no, cant believe that I had got myself so worked up over accepting an invitation to a night out that I actually cried at lunch time, how sad is that. I can work myself into such a state and its only in the discussion stage!! Mind you I do feel a bit better about it now, got it off my chest so to speak so not going to think about it anymore now until its time to start making arrangements and thats not for another three weeks so plenty of time to chill.
Wednesday night I went to an open circle. if your not sure what that is then let me explain, its a group of like minded people that all want to open their psychic energy. Now do not scoff, it's not to everybody's taste but I like anything from what I call the more natural side of things like self healing, working with crystals, karma, rhunes etc etc. Oh my did I make an entrance, walked in, saw a comfy sofa at the side and thought 'how nice' and plonked myself down forgetting that my aunty was with me, (a guy was already sat at the other side of the sofa). Anyway, she sat at the other side of the room and kept looking at me so in the end I said would you like me to come over there? Yes, she replied so then the fun began, because my back is still hurting (I pulled a muscle a couple of weeks ago in the bathroom and was left standing on one leg, trousers only half way up, unable to move a muscle and in serious danger of toppling over (I have no sense of balance) shouting for Ian who couldnt hear me as he was in the conservatory at the time, eventually my muscles decided to release enough for me to hobble to the top of the stairs where I proceeded to gingerly lower myself down and finally managed to slide down the stairs on my bum, great fun)! Anyway I digress, I had to shuffle about for what seemed like an eternity before I could find a comfortable enough position to enable me to stand, hobbled over to the seat next to her and sat, big mistake, was not a good seat, I dont think it had any bottom in it so I just seemed to sink, and sink and sink whilst at the same time everyone in the room was saying: 'dont sit there', phew I managed not to collapse in a heap on the floor with chair all around me but it was a near miss!!! So off I toddled again, back to where I had originally sat, talk about making an entrance, by this time everyone knew I was there.
The first thing we did was meditation, how nice, a bit of me time, so relaxing, we then went on to do sone drawings, they where really funny, we started off with a stick man then added things such as clothes, accessories, face, whatever we felt. This was then passed on to the neighbour who read your personality from what you had drawn, interesting.
Omg, I am suddenly struggling to write as I have just agreed to go out with my colleagues from work for a meal, heeeelp, I am panicking already, what if I make a fool of myself, or nobody talks to me or I have a panic attack or I look stupid, I am already feeling sick to the bottom of my stomach just thinking of it. Best is I know that I will be fine, I know that I get on with everyone its just that it will be the first time I have been outside my comfort zone when I have not been with either family or close friends, anyway I will let you know how I get on, its not for a few weeks yet so plenty of time to talk myself out of it.
Oh no, cant believe that I had got myself so worked up over accepting an invitation to a night out that I actually cried at lunch time, how sad is that. I can work myself into such a state and its only in the discussion stage!! Mind you I do feel a bit better about it now, got it off my chest so to speak so not going to think about it anymore now until its time to start making arrangements and thats not for another three weeks so plenty of time to chill.